Have you ever woke up and felt like there was a dark cloud over you? This particular morning I rose to an emotion that was absolutely heavy. I even went to a place where I question my purpose for the day, I had no drive in me and the day just begun. Usually, I would have stayed in bed and cover myself with the sheets as I slept the day away. Yet, there was an urge inside me that was ready to fight this feeling and take back my control. I was a warrior who was trapped. This was the day, I stepped out of bed and fought for my presence to be seen and voice to be heard.
My essential oils, rosemary, and eucalyptus were turned on to clean the air and clarify, uplift, and purify my spirit. I open the blinds, release the light to kiss my skin and I set Indian style in the center of my bed. Before I actually meditated I read an affirmation:
“I am attracting better because I have discovered that it all starts with ME. I am going to change myself first so that everything can align with ME. I am not going to blame anyone. I am going to take responsibility for my life. The better I become, the better I attract.”
After repeating this out loud and in my mind, it was as if a light was turned on inside of me. My kids were in my space doing all sorts of things in the background. One was playing a game, the other two were striving to mimic me while I travel on my journey to cultivate peace in my life. I tune them out and what I came across on is the fact the only thing I have control of is me and the external is nothing but energy that I have no control of. I have power on how I respond to all energy and it is up to me to be empowered and know my power. Even with the chaos surrounding me, I was able to be center and gain my control back over me. I stepped out of my meditation more clearer and uplifted. After this, I walked away and accomplished more that day with peace within me.
I share this because as educators we will have storms, challenges, distractions, and everything may seem to be against us. We have great days and then we have one of those days that makes us drag our selves out the bed, into the car, and into the building of the school. You and I are not alone. It’s not always easy but we all have one thing in common and that is having control of ourselves. No matter what the education system, principal, parents, society, throws at you, you can make it out and still carry your crown through these barriers. Moments like these remind me how strong educators are and how we must continue to support one another through our path on transforming education for all students.